unstoppable

Okay so I am not silly enough to think that everyone doesn’t have their own problems- I know that is true and we don’t need to be burdened by anyone else’s shortcomings. But I just need to take 5 minutes to vent because all of this stress is piling up and I am trying so hard not to succumb to therapy thru eating.

I am teaching summer school, and I have a mixture of 3rd, 4th, and 5th graders who need to pass a combination of reading, math, and language arts. Catering to all of their needs has been so challenging and time-consuming, but I know how much extra support they need! Anyway, we started testing today, and I’m soooo nervous they won’t pass! :o(

Another stress- the guy I have been seeing. We have been talking for about 2 months, and at least 5 weeks of those have been with a daily argument or disagreement. I tried to break things off with him FOR GOOD last night- but he is not letting go. He called me 30 times…..I feel so bad, but I just don’t know that he is what I need right now.

Then- financial stress. I have under $200 for the rest of the month for gas and groceries. I should be okay, but that is a tight squeeze for 20 days! I’m also trying to pay off credit cards and have done so for the most part, but when I start feeling like this- I either want to eat, or shop.

HELPPPPP!!!!! What do you all do when you’re stressed out? Please don’t say exercise lol!

I was created with fat genes. LOL. Although I won the genetic lottery on the smart side, I did not win it in the department of skinny genes. I come from a family where 200+ shows up on everyone’s scale, and we all have an undeniable love for food.

Basically, when I look at something fattening, I add the pounds. I can gain weight ridiculously fast, and I don’t think my metabolism has ever kicked in. Yes, it has been a lifelong struggle to maintain a healthy weight- and I would say that out of my 22 years, not even half of them have been at a healthy size. It’s extremely frustrating, and there are many days when I turn to food to comfort me.

But, today is a new day with a new attitude- I have the courage to champion change. I even turned down red velvet cake (my FAVORITE) at lunch today. With this added accountability- I will reach my goal. I believe in myself now more than ever, and that is why I am unstoppable.

Bestitos <3